Went to the sinseh today to check my leg. and he say it’s in bad shape. Oh man, i’m damn worried i wun be able to dance for a while. I have tons of dance rehearsal this and next week. And it’s crucial tat i attend them or i’ll have a super hard time later on catching up. I’m going to cry. He said i probably hurt it further during the recital performance cuz the swelling haven gone on. I always wonder why dancers cry when other dancers injured themselves causing them not able to dance again. Like “it’s not you! Don’t make such a big scene!” now i understand. The fear of not able to dance again, to feel the stage under your feet, to feel the adrenaline rush when u perform and the sense of satisfaction after that. CRY!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wanna dance freely again. Missed the days where I can attend dance everyday without worries. When i can run for buses ( it’s so weir d that i always hate running for buses, but since I sprain my foot, i’m starting to miss it a lot ), when i can jog at the park ( oh man!! I miss Jogging !!!!!!! ) and lastly and most importantly! I MISS MY HEELS!!!!!!!!! CRY ~~! Oki, stop rolling your eyes! I’m a girl!

Please god, help my foot heal quickly!!!!! It’s driving me crazy!
Praying,
R